Small talk of forever

             Smile, that was the first thing I did when I woke up this morning. The dream everyheartbeat waited came and you were there. Not so much but it was enough to save my day. So, how are you? it's july you know. Almost your birthday, so Happy almost birthday, from me.

You look so beautiful today

when you're siting there 

it's hard for me to look away

so I try to find the words that I could say

I know distance doesn't matter

but you feel so far away

            That's the song that came to my head when I saw you this morning, in my dream. Yeah, I walked to do the things I have to do in the morning with a smile which is brighter than the sunrise today. Everyone asked me if I weren't sleep last night, maybe because I woke up early and looked so happy haha. there's an event I don't even remembered but both you and me were there, I borrowed your cooking book as I remembered haha. Afraid if you would go home earlier so I looked after you and there you are. You were sitting in the corner and as I walked by, you walked after me giving me another 2 books, the first one was the book I borrowed from you a year ago and sorry I couldn't give it back, I lost it and I still looking for a way to tell you that until today. I was trying to tell you at that moment but you talked first and if only you know how happy I was, having a small talk with you after all these years. So, I am sorry about that book, I was looking for it but there was no clue. I lost it yeah I know I was stupid. sorry. We talked at least two or three lines until my lecturer came and asked me to help the event, then I woke up.

but I can't lie

everytime I leave my heart turns grey

and I want to comeback home to see your face tonight

 but I just can't take it

Another day without you with me

it's like a blade that cut right through me

           I am still wondering about the second book, it was green but I have no idea what is that book. is it our school graduation book? But why? why that book come after all? Is there something you want me to know? ah it was just a dream. All I remembered is that small talk, made my day. So if you ever wanted to, you can talk to me anytime anywhere. But look at us now, not even hello was said even when we know each of was online on facebook. But you know what?

But, I can wait forever

July 9th, 2016